BKJN Pat: My Mastery Test packet should have come with this warning: UNEXPECTED OBSTACLES AHEAD- Be prepared for sudden shifts in confidence and attitude.

August 8, 2015

No, I didn't expect this to be easy, but I sure didn't expect all the things that would come up in the course of preparing for this test.  Just when I think I'm feeling strong and confident, something occurs to call that into question. This week it was something as simple as not sleeping well and the impact that had on my ability to train and keep my negative attitude in check.  There are seemingly endless possibilities of bumps in the road,  and you'd think by now that wouldn't surprise me or catch me off guard, but it does.  I meet all the challenges, not always as well as I'd like to but I do, and yet each new one knocks me off balance, at least momentarily.  I should be able to take confidence in all I've accomplished, yet I don't.  And I find myself wondering why.  There is more evidence to support confidence than not.  I haven't given up even when I believed I couldn't do what was put before me.

I look forward to the day when I see myself in terms of what I am, what I can do rather than what I can't or I'm not.  KJN Paul said from the start, this Mastery Test is really about mastering myself.  That's no small task.  I am a tenacious opponent.

I took a couple days off this week in order to allow myself the opportunity to get some needed rest.  It helped.  I do know that I have to listen closely to my body.  I study homeopathy and we hold the idea that our bodies make no mistakes.  They tell us perfectly what we need to know. We just have to listen and pay attention.  It's when we don't listen that we get into trouble because then our bodies have to go to greater extremes to get our attention. This is not the time to face that particular obstacle so I am going to listen.

Training August 3-8 2015
Push ups:  800
Sit ups:  800
Running:  6.6 miles
Cycling:  10 miles
Classes:  2 Black Belt, 1 private, 1w/ SBN Terri