August 2, 2015
It's hard to believe this is the start of the fourth month of training. The time has passed quickly and at times I find myself in a panic over there not being enough time. It is both a long time and not a long enough time when I think about all that I still need to do.
I have recently started wearing a bracelet on which is engraved "She believed she could so she did". Through out our Mastery training, if anything should have become clear and evident to me, it's that I meet whatever challenge is put before me. Yet, there is always doubt or fear that I won't. I think it's time to leave that behind and instead of being the person who prefaces every challenge with I don't think I can, learn to embrace the person that I truly am. It is such an ingrained pattern for me that it will take time to change it. So each time I see, and therefore read the words on my bracelet, I consciously change my thoughts about me. I remember the 40 foot climb that I BELIEVED was impossible and laugh with joy at finding out it simply wasn't so.
I continue to struggle each morning with the fact that I start my day with push ups, sit ups and bicycling or running. I thought I had this issued licked by just affirming "this is what I do". No judgment in that; just a fact. That's not working so well these days. I might start out energetically on Monday but my enthusiasm quickly falls away when I haven't slept well or other stresses invade. Once I get started, I'm usually okay, but I find myself easily diverted between sets so it's actually taking me a bit longer than I'd like. I guess that's really not important. What is important is I get them done.
Training 7/27- 8/1/2015
Push ups: 1,150 ( yes I have insanely decided to do 200 a day. I only missed that once this week)
Sit ups: 1,130
Running: 3.32 miles
Bicycling: 23.2 miles
Classes: 2 Black Belt, 2 private lessons, 1 Kali
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